Sunday, January 11, 2009
Going down to reminiscence lane again. There is undoubtedly one confrontation in my life that changed my carrier & life for good.
Results of class 8th were just announced and yet again I faired deficiently in math’s scoring merely 44/100. Dad was perceptibly very angry with it. As principle called him up and said that I’ve been doing well in rest of the subjects but math remains area of great concern. So dad was infuriated that day and came home all guns blazing on me and mummy. Saying that I won’t be able to do anything in life and career if I don’t improve my math. Scolded me and mummy saying her that it’s her love that has spoiled me. I didn’t have meal that day and went of to bed.
It was 11:30pm at night when mummy entered my room.
Mummy: “Is u sleeping”
I was awoke & reciprocated:” no”
Mummy: “Why you don’t do your math properly? Why you are so scared of it?”
Me: “I don’t know but I try and moreover it doesn’t excites me, I don’t like the subject ”
Mummy: “It’s not a matter of choice here, you have to do it”
Mummy : “Because of you there is so much of conflict in house and whole atmosphere is ruined, and your dad scolds you for your good only, why don’t you understand”
Mummy spoke as tears came out of her eyes and her voice choked in her throat.. One thing I couldn’t se (like most people in this world) couldn’t see was tears in mother’s eyes.
Me: (hugging her): “don’t cry, I will do it, I will give my best & pledge you that you will never have to cry for this reason”
Mummy:” it’s not about crying it’s about you, your future”
Mummy:” Take your food”
I knew mummy won’t take her meal if I haven’t, so we both took food and she went off.
That day I took pledge I can’t run away from it, I can’t see mummy crying, I got to do some thing. The tears in her eyes just kept revolving in mind all night. Tears in mother’s eye changed all. Now I was not petrified of deadly looking square roots and all that unknown x,y,z. Just didn’t realized when I slept off.
Woke up and started from scratch, started the scheduling. And resoluted on the subject. It took me few months before I realized that this subject isn’t that tuff as I thought. Slowly I gained confidence and then came I time when I started doing mathematics as time pass. Started loving it, and every time I got stuck I just remembered mom’s tears and promise made to her. Things started coming back to normal and by the time final exams started I was mentally strong and did well to score 84/100. After that it just improves to the extent that I got in IIT and never looked back after that. Thanks to papa and mummy for all the encouragement and prop up. I know whatever I am or would be it’s because of my mother. Love you mummy and papa.