She won't cry but...

Her head hung low,
her heart beat fast.
But when he walked out of the room,
She raised her head high.
Maybe she'll get over him,
Maybe she wont cry.

It's been a long time now,
People say she should move on,
But she just can't get over him.

They talk about the time,
When they shared all that love

But nobody understands,
Why she's still in love.

She falls to the ground,
And try's to get back up,
But the fear keeps pushing her down.
Will she ever escape the memory of his love?

Her wings are torn and tattered,
Her aura slipping low.
But they say one day she will rise again,
As only the Fallen Angel can.

Dedicated to my best pal & her audacity, fortitude & valor. God bless her & my wishes come from the core of my heart.

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Let it Fall

One more anti-hero worshipfrom the depthsof some enigmatic fool

that left the suburbsfor the open fieldsof post modern flight from hell.

No, not from the quakesor the rumblings of racism,

that stench we all tendto want to get rid of,

but the fact that therewere just too many things wrong.

So off I went to the lastjourney of my youth,

through the pubs and alleysof Los Angeles that servedmany nights of reckless talk

and the establishment be damned.There goes Happy House,

Screamand all those open up at 10 pmparty houses,

where you paid 5 bucksto drink yourself to life,

and walk out Saturday morning at 6 amlike the kind demons we were.

And dance the pain that we hadkept for the weekand wonder what 30 would be like

and if the Virgin Pruneswere right about"If I die I die".

But then, that love in your soulthe one that makes you write

and pour out those false indignities that caress your heart

and mindfor after all we've been throughstars have their moments and then they die.

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चेहरे पर अरुणाई

जहाँ भी देखूँ तुम्हीं हो हर ओरप्रतीक्षा के पल, फिर कहाँ किस ओर ॥
चेहरे पर अरुणाई सी खिल जातीधड़कनें स्पन्दन बन मचल
जातीयादों की बारिश में, नाचे मन मोर ॥
कब तन्हा जब साथ तुम,
बन परछाईसाथ देख तुम्हारा खुदा भी मांगे मेरी
तन्हाईमेरे हर क्षण को सजाया, तुमने चित्त चोर ॥
मेरे संग चांद भी करता रहता
इंतज़ारतेरी हर बात को उससे कहा मैंने कितनी बारफिर
भी सुनता मुस्कुराकर,
जब तक न होती भोर ॥
तुम्हारे लिए हूँ मैं शायद,
बहुत दूरतुम पर पास मेरे,
जितना आँखों के नूरमेरी साँसों को बाँधे, तेरे स्नेह की डोर ॥

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कितना हसीन होता है

कितना हसीन होता है
नवह ख्वाब ,
जो कभी-कभीयूं ही आंखो मेंउतर के आता हैबीछा के
कागज़ परसितारों के हर्फ़और चाँद के किरणों कीरोशन स्याही कोनाम ख़त का दिया जाता है ,
पता लिखा होता हैइस में उस हद काजहाँ सब गुनाह माफ़ होते हैं ,......
जुड़ता है
रिश्ता सिर्फ़ रूह से रूह काऔर सूरज से चमकते आखरसिर्फ़ मोहब्बत की जुबान होते हैं ,
बहती सी यह हवाएँ ले जाती हैख्यालों को वहाँ तक ,जहाँ लफ्जों का ........
एक गुलिस्तां सा नज़र आता हैझर जाती है
राख याद कीऔर एक घुलता हुआ धुआँसब तरफ़ फैल जाता हैऔर
तब अटकी हुई साँसों के साथएक अन्तहीन सफर,जहाँ खत्म हुआ था .....
फ़िर वही से शुरू हो जाता है !!

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स्वाद चखा आँसू का

स्वाद चखा कल आँसू का जब बरसों बाद।
आया समन्दर का खारापन मुझको याद।।
दिल का दर्द पिघलकर बाहर आया था;बहने दिया मैंने भी खुलकर बरसों बाद।
बहुत ज़रूरी है जीवन में रोना भी;सीखा यारों मैंने जाकर ये बरसों बाद।
अश्कों ने धो डाला दिल के घावों को;आज मिली कुछ राहत मुझको बरसों बाद।
वैसे तो रोना फितरत है हसीनों की;सीख लो उनसे ये गर रहना है आबाद।
पता नहीं अब कब रोऊँगा अगली बार;शायद बहेगा मन का नमक फिर बरसों बाद।

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सहज स्वीकार करो

ना कभी अपने धीर का प्रतिकार करोहो निडर संघर्ष को,
सहज स्वीकार करो पथ कंटक बड़ा,
सैकड़ों हैं झँझावातकरने को स्वागत खड़े,
जाने कितने ही आघातपर लक्ष्य से ना अडिग हो,
निडर डटे रहोहिम्मत हो अगर तो,
है काँटों की क्या बिसात पंख लगा लो उमंग का,
उत्साह का संचार करोहो निडर संघर्ष को,
सहज स्वीकार करोरहे लगन,
संकल्प पक्का, हौसला खोने ना पाएना देखो उस ओर तुम, हैं
जहाँ मायूसियों के साएबना के साधना इस जीवन को,
मानव हित मेंकरो सूर्योदय जहाँ ग़म के,
बादल हैं छायेबना हृदय अपना विशाल,
आशा का विस्तार करोहो निडर संघर्ष को,
सहज स्वीकार करो. हो सृष्टि के सबसे प्रखर प्राणी,
तुम इंसान होपहचानो तो स्वयं को,
क्षमताओं की ख़ान होउठाओ आनंद प्रकृति के आतिथ्य का,
ना भूलोकि तुम इस संसार में, आए बन के मेहमान होहो हो के हताश,
ना इस जीवन को बेकार करोहो निडर संघर्ष को, सहज स्वीकार करो

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Ignorant before the heavens of my Life

Ignorant before the heavens of my life,
I stand and gaze in wonder.
Oh the vastnessof the stars.
Their rising and descent.
How still.As if I didn't exist.
Do I have anyshare in this?
Have I somehow dispensed withtheir pure effect?
Does my blood's ebb and flowchange with their changes?
Let me put asideevery desire, every relationshipexcept this one,
so that my heart grows used toits farthest spaces.
Better that it livefully aware, in the terror of its stars,
thanas if protected, soothed by what is near.

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What Should I Do With My Life?

The real meaning of success -- and how to find it.

It's time to define the new era. Our faith has been shaken. We've lost confidence in our leaders and in our institutions. Our beliefs have been tested. We've discredited the notion that the Internet would change everything (and the stock market would buy us an exit strategy from the grind). Our expectations have been dashed. We've abandoned the idea that work should be a 24-hour-a-day rush and that careers should be a wild adventure. Yet we're still holding on.
We're seduced by the idea that picking up the pieces and simply tweaking the formula will get the party started again. In spite of our best thinking and most searing experience, our ideas about growth and success are mired in a boom-bust mentality. Just as LBOs gave way to IPOs, the market is primed for the next engine of wealth creation. Just as we traded in the pinstripes and monster bonuses of the Wall Street era for T-shirts and a piece of the action during the startup revolution, we're waiting to latch on to the new trappings of success. (I understand the inclination. I've surfed from one boom to the next for most of my working life -- from my early days as a bond trader to my most recent career as a writer tracking the migration of my generation from Wall Street to Silicon Valley.)
There's a way out. Instead of focusing on what's next , let's get back to what's first . The previous era of business was defined by the question, Where's the opportunity? I'm convinced that business success in the future starts with the question, What should I do with my life? Yes, that's right. The most obvious and universal question on our plates as human beings is the most urgent and pragmatic approach to sustainable success in our organizations. People don't succeed by migrating to a "hot" industry (one word: dotcom) or by adopting a particular career-guiding mantra (remember "horizontal careers"?). They thrive by focusing on the question of who they really are -- and connecting that to work that they truly love (and, in so doing, unleashing a productive and creative power that they never imagined). Companies don't grow because they represent a particular sector or adopt the latest management approach. They win because they engage the hearts and minds of individuals who are dedicated to answering that life question.
This is not a new idea. But it may be the most powerfully pressing one ever to be disrespected by the corporate world. There are far too many smart, educated, talented people operating at quarter speed, unsure of their place in the world, contributing far too little to the productive engine of modern civilization. There are far too many people who look like they have their act together but have yet to make an impact. You know who you are. It comes down to a simple gut check: You either love what you do or you don't.
Those who are lit by that passion are the object of envy among their peers and the subject of intense curiosity. They are the source of good ideas. They make the extra effort. They demonstrate the commitment. They are the ones who, day by day, will rescue this drifting ship. And they will be rewarded. With money, sure, and responsibility, undoubtedly. But with something even better too: the kind of satisfaction that comes with knowing your place in the world. We are sitting on a huge potential boom in productivity -- if we could just get the square pegs out of the round holes.

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Philosophy of Life

If we all want and need friends why cant we get along with people who are willing to be our friends? Why do people complain about the communities they live in, yet refuse to do nothing about it themselves? Why do people say they hate someone even when they don?t know the person they are going against? When will humans recognize that beauty isn?t found in a magazine it?s what?s found deep inside your heart and that what?s inside is what makes that person who they are? What causes people to take life for granted, and act like they have nothing when they actually have everything and don?t realize it. All of these questions and more are points in everyone's life that we all have to deal with.
Life is always looking for the light at the end of every dark and treacherous tunnel and never looking behind you because you think the path is getting to rough. To live is to learn we need to take one of life?s endless lessons from our laborious journeys of the past and the present and use them towards those coming up in the future. Even though cho
. . . Our lives and personalities may be different but deep down inside we all want and need the same things. You need to be active in your community also you can?t complain about it and then expect everyone else to do what you want done; you need to stand up and take the first step into accomplishing your goal. Everyone does it just takes someone else to make us realize it sometimes. Love is knowing you have someone at the end of the tunnel waiting for you that will care for you and tell you that you made and then prepare you your next trek. It?s a giant circle if one thing falls the other falls too. Love is the warm feeling you get inside every time that special someone walks past you and you make direct eye contact.
Literature is something that people of all ages need to use and learn to comprehend. Everyone who has ever created an Idea worth writing about has and has written it for a reason, to be read and to be remembered someday by someone who they might not have even known.
Life is something worth caring about we all need to stand tall and accept our differences. It can be a wonderful thing as long as you make it enjoyable. But it takes real inner strength to keep pushing at something to try to continue and accomplish your goals in life, because neither how big or how small a problem may seem nothing is ever worth giving up. We need to work to preserve our natural areas as they are to keep our world and us healthy and in good order. Writing is a view into the soul of the author depending on their writing style, topic, how long they write all these things give you an idea about how the authors personality was. You are only as good as the company you keep and a good community is a reflection on what you might be like as you grow older.

It’s to easy to just give up and say that you can’t do something. In the time I’ve spent in this world I’ve cried and laughed, I’ve Suffered and I’ve enjoyed, I’ve tried and I’ve fallen, I’ve received and I’ve lost, I’ve lived and I’ve loved. But yet I’m still confused on many things.
For instance, what is love? Many think its the strongest emotion that a human being can have, but I seem to find the word over used and I think its lost its meaning. These days’ people throw the word around all the time. People look at situations and say, “oh that’s not love and try to define it as something else, like lust, infatuation, or ‘deep liking’ who is to say what love is and what love isn’t? Its a word that really cant be defined because it means something different to everyone.
I used to have the fairy tale dream. One day prince charming would come riding up for me on his horse and wed ride away to his castle where we would live happily ever after with our children, but through heartache and suffering I’ve realized that dream will never happen, nor will anything close to it. I don’t fully understand the word love and I don’t think I ever will.
But who needs love? I’ve lived my life for fifteen years without it, why should I change
. . . The phones sitting on the hook yet you cant dial their number and hear their voice like you used to. That now? I have my friends who keep me on solid ground. Its a soul hurt, a body hurt, a real gets inside of you and rips you apart pain. Don't let on that you're not, what you're pretending to be. Friendship may end up in love but love never ends up in friendship, at least not to the extent it was before.
Something must be wrong with me with all this hurt inside, always bursting with anger, and never any pride. When I’m all alone no one can see the darkness in my eyes, so every night I cry, I suffer in silence, I wont deny that the pain is real if asked, but that never happens. I’m going insane, a little bit more everyday and everything I once thought I wanted I now realized is the last thing I want and need. People say the best relationships come from friendships, yet I could never date one of my close friends. Hide the pain, carry on, routine is the key.
What about being independent? Being able to do what you want whenever you want and not having to worry that someone else is over analyzing everything you say all the time seems ok to me. So you give up so many chances to be with wonderful people all because you wish they made you feel like it was the first time all over again. Its hard to lose the one you love and to finally say goodbye. Since I’m a fan of quotes another one comes to mind.

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Understanding Life

Does knowing we are going to die help us to live? How? We often take our lives for granted especially when we're young. We think we're going to live forever. But, from one moment to the next, nobody knows what will happen. A person could be alive and well one moment and dead the next, this shows the value of life and the uncertainties of death.

Death is the “great unknown,” and that's why it's so frightening. Also, we perceive the inevitability of death long before it happens, which can be worrying, even tormenting. This fear and suffering keeps us from thinking seriously about death as it impedes our happiness. We need to know how to do this, how to live in freedom, not being imprisoned by the future and not being carried away by things in the present. When we can live our daily life deeply and genuinely, we begin to feel free and are able to live; we can see the true nature of life, we arrive at a great freedom with in you and freedom is the essence of happiness. All of us are equal as far as life and death are concerned; we are all going to die. So it is very equal, death will happen to everybody. Everyone has to die however, before we die, can we live properly? Properly being living life and enjoying life, not being sucked in by your surroundings and thought. I am determined to live properly until I die.

If we are going to die, then we have to live the best we can. If we don’t live the best we can why should we live? You are given an extraordinary thing, which is life, and you should use it to fulfil everything you desire, that is how life should be lived. The saying, “To live well is to die well,” takes on great meaning. If our life is filled with being caught in the restraints of pain and suffering, then our life doesn’t have the same kind of meaning as if we live in freedom. Knowing that we have to die, I am determined to live my life properly, deeply. If we aren’t able to live with peace, joy, and freedom before we die, then we live as if we are dead already. Hearing the doctors’ words, “You have cancer, you may live for six months.” This completely overwhelms the listener. The fear, the idea that I’m going to die in six months takes away all peace and joy of living life. Before the doctor tells the person they had cancer, they had the capacity to enjoy themselves with their friends. However, once the doctor informs them of the tragic news, they have lost all the capacity to sit and enjoy a cup of tea, or enjoy a meal, or watch the stars, because they are so afraid of the moment when they will die. The inevitability of death, takes away all our freedom. Accepting that death is something that comes to everybody will reduce your suffering. Mohandas Ghandi, spoke openly about how to live life: “Do not pursue the past. Do not lose yourself in the future. The past no longer is. The future has not yet come. Looking deeply at life as it is in the very here and now, the practitioner dwells in stability and freedom.” Many of us are caught up thinking in the past. The past is no longer there and we compare it with the present, we say that the past was more beautiful than the present. However when those past moments were lived we didn’t really value them at the time. We were always running after the future and now if we were taken back to the past, we would do the same. Our fear is our projections we have of the future tomorrow. Maybe this will happen, or that will happen, we project it like that. That is what makes us afraid. Fear does not occur naturally. Fear comes from our thinking. Our thinking that this will happen tomorrow, that will happen tomorrow. Notice the future is something that is not yet there. Because the future is never there, once it’s there it’s the present. We must be diligent today to not wait until tomorrow is too late. As the great Nelson Mandela said “ There is only today, let us do the best we can do today. People have given us all the conditions for practicing mindfulness, and yet we don’t do it, we say we’ll do it tomorrow we needn’t do it today. But tomorrow’s too late, because of impermanence.” Death comes unexpectedly. One can’t bargain with death, we cannot make a deal with death. Our challenge as people is to improve ourselves to live happy, fulfilled lives. In doing so we are guaranteed that when our time comes we will die happy. Therefore death becomes something, which stimulates us, motivates us, to help us live in solidity and freedom.

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Watever it takes

As our life conditions are getting better, more and more people become more aware of the way to enjoy life. Many may discuss that young generations tend to be the ones that should and can enjoy a better life. As for me, I think it is better to consider it in a more general way, for old people and youngsters have their own way to enjoy life.As the most active group of people in society, youngsters can easily get in touch with the updating world. They are more sensitive to the tiniest changes of what is around them and so they tend to be the first to adapt with them.

Take the most heated technology — computer for example. As it first came into our life, who were the first and the most interested to respond? Youngsters. With their natural curiosity and a kind of special quality to crack difficulties, they made themselves into a brand new world. Similar to this, they always keep themselves updated to the latest world… With the help of internet, and other tools like the mobile phones or else, they enjoy a leading life that no one else can ever do.In contrast, though old people are likely to be insensitive or even indifferent to what is new around us, they tend to enjoy life in a more traditional way.

Drawing, growing plants, reading, chatting or even taking a walk inside the yard can make them feel that life is wonderful. My grandfather is just one of these people. He told me a million times how satisfied and ideal his life is especially when he helps my grandma with the meal or when he gets more ancient coins for his collection. You see, old people can enjoy their life in a easier way.For me, it really doesn’t matter who can enjoy a better life. It only matters that we can and should live a happy life in different period of our life. Even though it’s not to be decided, we can still make it to the fullest

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On Being Evacuated

horses bleed from their nostrils
they are skittish and red-eyed
& they try to shake it out
of their heads they try
to outrun it children
turn on strange
mattresses
their pet
birds
die

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Not Understood

Not understood, we move along asunder;
Our paths grow wider as the seasons creep Along the years; we marvel and we wonder Why life is life, and then we fall asleep
Not understood.
We gather false impressions And hug them closer as the years go by;Till virtues often seem to us transgressions;And thus men rise and fall, and live and die
Not understood.
Poor souls with stunted vision Of measure giants with their narrow gauge;
The poisoned shafts of falsehood and derision Are oft impelled 'gain st those who mould the age, Not understood.
The secret springs of action Which lie beneath the surface and the show, Are disregarded; with self-satisfaction We judge our neighbours, and they often go
understood.
How trifles often change us! The thoughtless sentence and the fancied slight Destroy long years of friendship, and estrange us,
And on our souls there falls a freezing blight; Not understood.
Not understood! How many breasts are aching For lack of sympathy! Ah! day by day How many cheerless, lonely hearts are breaking! How many noble spirits pass away,Not understood.

O God! that men would see a little clearer,Or judge less harshly where they cannot see!O God! that men would draw a little nearer To one another, -- they'd be nearer Thee,
And understood

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Not Waving but Drowning

Nobody heard him, the dead man,

But still he lay moaning:I was much further out than you thought And not waving but drowning.
Poor chap, he always loved larking

And now he's deadIt must have been too cold for him his heart gave way,They said. Oh, no no no, it was too cold always(Still the dead one lay moaning)I was much too far out all my lifeAnd not waving but drowning

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Footprints in the Sand

One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.

Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.

Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,other times there were one set of footprints.
This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life,when I was suffering from anguish, sorrow or defeat,I could see only one set of footprints.
So I said to the Lord,“You promised me Lord,that if I followed you,you would walk with me always.But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life there have only been one set of footprints in the sand.Why, when I needed you most, you have not been there for me?”
The Lord replied,“The times when you have seen only one set of footprints in the sand,is when I carried you.”

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The whole wide world will smile with you

When your Smiling
When you’re smilin’....keep on smilin’
The whole world smiles with you
And when you’re laughin’....keep on laughin’The sun comes shinin’ through
But when you’re cryin’....
you bring on the rain So stop your frownin’....
be happy again Cause when you’re smilin’....
keep on smilin’The whole world smiles with you

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I must go down

I must go down to the seas again,
to the lonely sea and the sky,
and all I ask is a tall ship and a star to steer her by,
and the wheel's kick and the wind's song
and the white sail's shaking,
and a grey mist on the sea's face
and a grey dawn breaking.i must go down to the seas again,
for the call of the running tide
is a wild call and a clear call that may not be denied;
and all I ask is a windy day with the white clouds flying,
and the flung spray and the blown spume,
and the sea-gulls crying.I must go down to the seas again, to the vagrant gypsy life,
To the gull's way and the whale's way where the wind's like a whetted knife;
And all I ask is a merry yarn from a laughing fellow-rover,
And quiet sleep and a sweet dream when the long trick's ove

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Let me arise

Let me arise and open the gate,
to breathe the wild warm air of the heath,
And to let in Love, and to let out Hate,
And anger at living and scorn of Fate,
To let in Life, and to let out Death

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